how do I..

i have thgs i have to SAY..

but i cant, because i will just hurt people..

the moment i start the talking, they’ll flipped..

they have their opinions, and i do respect them,

and i have my own too, but mine is unheard..

u noe, i dont just tell stuff without meaning,

when i ask sumthg, it’s because i do have a strong reason for it..

so strong that i know u will never understand..

now i am torn apart,

torn inside,

and i noe, only He knows best..

and now, when i am forced on my knees, it’s the best tyme to pray, isnt it?

and He knows, i cant be both, i cant be good, and bad at the same tyme..

and He knows, how much my heart is crying,

how much my soul is tortured..

and here i am,

at the crossroads, between good and bad.

i wanna be good, i do,

and im even crying and praying that ill be good.